Ever the fool that I am in trusting others, it is part of my integral self. I was born with a very good intuition of others that rarely proves wrong. I always have a fairly good intuitive sense of what is right for me and what is not. Don’t let that fool you because when it fooled me they were deucedly big ones!
How about the time that I just knew more than anyone in the world or the company that I could help a manager? I left a perfectly positively wonderful position to work for a woman I thought I knew and trusted and that couldn’t keep an employee as her assistant. I now know why. This was against the advice of others that had worked with her for years. I was so hopped up on my ability to be better than anyone else and “help” this person. I apparently lost my ability to hear and reason with myself or anyone else.
Yep, I lasted four plus years with her. Four murderous, mind blowing, loss of self esteem, back breaking pitiful years. I didn’t just not listen, my intuition failed me and I went ahead and allowed her to drag me through her nightmare. Turns out this witch and you can feel free to replace the w with a b, trust me it fits, is bi-polar, and absolutely hates liars but can lie better than most. Lie better than most that is not true, it was easy to pick out her lies that would be giving her a compliment that she did not deserve. No, she lied more often than most, even though liars are the worst sort of people you know. I was accused of lying, I’m no saint I had lied to her on occasion. However, the time she accused me, I hadn’t lied to her. She was also that type person (I won’t call her woman, since most women have more sense), that she would bully up if you tried to argue and it could seriously in the work place become a yelling screaming match for hours. Can you imagine? We are talking about someone that was in the upper tier of management, behaving like that. Like a small child. Not only do you (or you are supposed to) take the emotion or overt emotion out of the work place. At the same time you do not yell nor scream, and continue an argument for more than say twenty or thirty minutes. Especially, a manager does not do that to an employee, especially if others can hear. This woman would do this to me, in front of others. Seriously, how did this person get into this position? Furthermore, why did I allow it to continue? Why did her boss the top guy allow it to continue? She berated me, screamed at me, put me down, and talked about others behind their backs, for hours on end on a daily/weekly basis. I would need to work late to get my work down due to her occupying my time making sure that I knew how lowly I was.
I dug my feet in, like an idiot and kept after the job. I tried to ignore the tyrant and her name calling. I tried to teach her that it wasn’t an effective way to manage someone. I wanted to prove that I could do for her what no one else could do. She won; I ended up with high blood pressure, dreading to go to work daily (even though I enjoyed my work). She took off more days than anyone would have gotten away with in the company all the while claiming she was working from home. I didn’t care for the most part if she wasn’t there it was an easier place for me. However, she would never have allowed anyone else to do the same and that her boss allowed it ... had to make me realize I had misjudged him too.
