A Hidden Blessing

I can’t stand it anymore I’m worn down to my feet. Scared to see where I am and scared to move my feet. The unknown is unsettling lost and confused I’m settling. I wake up but have not awoken from this day to day misery feeling like I’m slipping away holding on to life with a death grip as my children look at me for comfort and reassurance that I’ll be there with them another day. My mouth says yes but inside I want to go. I feel I have nothing left to give and maybe they would be better off elsewhere but as yet another tear comes down my face and I’m sitting there bruised and all out of shape my daughter leans down to me and says mommy put it in Gods hand your gonna be okay. I look up with tears flowing from my eyes and look into this beautiful little girls eyes with such wisdom I realize I’ve been already giving such a blessing and I get up to start all over again.